Thursday, April 05, 2007

Three Days Grace - My Favorite Band


Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

This song in particular is a very knowing song. If you pay very close attention, you might be able to compare "Pain" with the life of you and your parents, your mom especially. I know my mom hasn't been the best person to be around but listening to this song made me realize that I definitely couldn't live without her. Moms may be a pain sometimes but they are that way for a reason and I have realized that. I don't know...I just think of all the trouble that my mom gives me and why she does it because of how much she cares.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

What You're Allowed To Do...

We all know how it feels to be 'locked up' by the pressures of family, friends, and those significant others we have. I mean, we got our parents, which is sort of understandable because they are there to protect us foolish kids, but then there's those times where the things we absolutely want to do, our parents don't let us. That is the motion that really pisses us kids off and most of us complaining and trying to change their minds, but some are so stubborn they stick with their first decision. But what can we do? They are our parents and we have to follow their rules...well...of course... only til we're 18.

Then, there are the pressures of what you want to do with your friends... whether you really want to do it or you are just doing it for them... what is the point of doing things just because your friends are doing them? Why is it supposedly so cool to be like everyone else? I mean, why not just express who YOU are and not who EVERYONE ELSE is? It's so much better, in my opinion, to be yourself and to be different...that's why we're called INDIVIDUALS. We're suppose to be unique. Go on your own instincts when you want to do something... if it sounds wrong then you shouldn't do it especially if you're pressured...I believe that there is no peer pressure..everyone can say no... there's nothing stopping you...if your "friends" threaten something to get you to do that something then they're really not friends, are they?

And of course, there's your significant others... yeah I can't say too much about them...well, they want you to be around them all the time. I'm not saying I don't enjoy it but if someone is going to keep track of you 24/7 and they are not you parents then I don't think it's a good relationship. Your "other" is supposed to be there, but still let you do those things you either have to do or the things you'd love to do. It's basically about control...they want to be able to tell you you can't do anything without them or anything that they don't like. Especially, when your "other" tells you who you can and cannot talk to ... I mean, what is it with people not letting you talk to your friends whether they are guys or girls? I think it's okay to be jealous but not letting you talk to your friends no matter the gender is just plain over jealous. It's not right.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Maya Angelou- "Still I Rise"

Still I Rise
by Maya Angelou

You may write me down in history

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may trod me in the very dirt

But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells

Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,

With the certainty of tides,

Just like hopes springing high,

Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?

Bowed head and lowered eyes?

Shoulders falling down like teardrops,

Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?

Don't you take it awful hard

'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines

Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?

Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I've got diamonds

At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame

I rise

Up from a past that's rooted in pain

I rise

I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise.

Poetry doesn't catch my interest often, but this poem by Maya Angelou did. It's interesting by how she seems to be confronting racists and/or sexists. She stands alone, but seems that she'd be backed up by all women and all African Americans. Maya stands for the rights of women and the rights of blacks. She seems to be a tough women willing to fight if the need arises. This poem was deep. It has this alure to it that just sticks out and pulls you in to tell you that you can't knock her down. She will get up again. She will rise.

I'm not too fond of poetry as I've mentioned, but when I do find something or someone that has caught my attention then I read and read and read. I do like Maya Angelou, even though today is only the second day I've ever read her poetry. I hope to find more attention grabbing poems by her.

Pass it on...says Mrs. Moritz

It's very rare that I see or hear about people who actually give instead of take. It's amazing to hear that someone gave this christmas when they could have taken. Everyone is so interested in getting an ipod or xbox or psp or ps3 or someother technological device that is at the top of their christmas lists. Even though it's not thanksgiving, the time of giving, christmas can be the same...people should want to give to others what they don't want or need. The urge to take is just a sign of selfishness.

I used to be selfish, but isn't everyone once in their life?? I mean, what is it with people wanting and wanting and wanting?? Yes, I was like that, but I see that that's all people are like, and when it comes to those who are in need, they don't care. I've changed my way of thinking and wanted to be one who helped. I don't often show it, but I do help. It's a new way of living and people should try it sometime.

Monday, January 08, 2007

News and Poetry

"Life And Death"

A woman has given birth
President Ford died
Twin sons in Barcelona
Center of Capitol Rotunda
Condition of anonymity
Thousands pay their respects
New borns in incubators
Caskets on the bier
World's oldest mother
Nation's 38th President

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

It was 2006, now it's 2007 - FINALLY!


I lived in Tennessee for 6 months...then moved here to New York for the last 6 months. It wasn't the best 6 months in TN, but as soon as I came here it got better. I guess the last 6 months of 2006 was the better half. I did what most 16 / 17-year-olds do. They party, hang out with the wrong people, get into it with the parents, and so on. But we all realize the bad, even though it's AFTER the fact, we still learn. In the mean time, I lost a brother...not physically, but emotionally. He turned out to be the exact same as the oldest of three, what should I expect though? I think all brothers can be your best friend, but they all end up being jerks in the end. The best thing about the previous year was when I met my boyfriend, David. I know most people don't believe that you can fall for someone so quick, but I have fallen for David and I hope this relationship lasts for as long as I'm alive. All along I've been waiting for the new year to arrive

HERE IT IS - 2007

It has arrived! Quicker than expected, but wanted all the same. I haven't made a resolution and don't particularly care to. I used to make resolutions like, eat healthier, stay in shape, and so on. But I've never really stuck to them for more than a week of two. So...I've decided there is no point in making a New Year's Resolution. This year will be different than the last though. I'LL BE GRADUATING IN JUNE! I've been waiting for that day for the longest time. I haven't decided whether I'm going to take a year off ( yes, I mean ONE year), or go straight to college in the fall. It's hard to choose because I have a boyfriend whom I don't want to lose, and a mother whom insists I should go in the fall. It's January and I have yet to hand in my apps for UB and ECC, and I don't think they'll accept anymore. Although, I do hope to go to college eventually. All I need is one year to save money so I CAN pay for my college. I, also, hope to move out of my house and move on to better places (maybe my boyfriend's house - hehe). Though, all 18-year-olds want to move out of there houses and get away from their parents, I really need to get out. I've waited and waited for that day to come and I'm sick of it. Six months is way too long.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

The Blind Now See!

Wow! Can you believe it? A 65-year-old lady was blind her entire life and now she can see thanks to a cornea transplant! It's a miracle!

I always imagined what it'd be like to be blind, but I never wanted to actually experience it myself. To read a story like that, it just touches the heart. It makes me want to find this lady and give her a BIG hug just for her confidence. It's good to know that there are people out there that do care about those with disabilities. I mean, there is still discrimination in this world and people still like to pick on those who are blind and/or deaf.

This story has me wondering why this mother of 12 didn't have a cornea transplant way before? Then, I think, well, how could I pay for it (if I was her)? These days, it's rather expensive to have any kind of surgery.

I, also, think of what it must have been like for her husband and her 12 kids. I mean, how did they feel kowing that their wife and mother couldn't really see them? They must be just as esctatic as Patricia, knowing now that she can see them and experience the true colors instead of blobs of nothing.

It has me feeling like I want to cry, but then I'm so happy for Patricia Stanton and her family. Congrads, Patricia! Enjoy the beauty of the world!

Monday, December 11, 2006

The People You Love The Most

"Friends, they are a nessesity in life. Some are and should be closer than others. A best friend is someone who you can share anything with. Someone who knows what your thinkin before you say it. My bestfriend whom i will not mention (Dave) is someone who i am very close to. Recently a man came to our school from a program called Rachels challenge, and asked us to think of 4 people and in the next week to make sure they know how much we love them and appreciate them for everything that we've been through. Dave, we've been friends for years and i just want to thank you for always being there for me when i need you and when i dont. You are no longer my friend but my brother. I will always be here for you, You know the number and ill get there as quick as i can. If you have money problems or just want to talk. ill always be here. I just wanted you to know that. ill talk to you later bro. Lylab." - - These words were spoken by Mike Anello.

When I read this blog by Mike Anello I was about to cry. First, I was like "WOW!''. Mike Anello does have a sensitive side. i've always seen him at his worst, when he's around his sister, Isis Archer. he snaps at her no matter what she says, good or bad. But he has changed.

Then, I thought back to that assembly we had, Rachel's Challenge. When the man told us to think of four people whom we love, Isis, Mike Walsh, Catherine Jimerson, and Josh Armstrong. I was balling during the whole assembly. I've never cried in school, especially that much. But to think of someone you love, well, that is deep.

I'm not really into being popular, because all those people just like the image that you make. They don't care so much that they'd all die for you, so I just care to have four close friends. Recently, I had an experience that brought so much drama to my senior year and all I do is say that, "If they don't like me then it's their loss." I'm not meaning to sound like I'm stuck up, but what can I do about those who don't like me? It'll take a lot to change their oppinion about me and I don't have the time to spend trying to get people to believe that I'm a good pereson.

As I was saying, I love those four people deeply. Isis, Mike, and Josh have been there for me for quite awhile. I love them so much (but no more then friends of course). Everytime I think ahead and picture my future, I still see them by my side sticking with whatever I decide. When I read Mike's post, it made me think about who I trust and who I'll love as friends for the longest time. I'll never forget anybody, especially those four!!

If you read this Isis, Mike Walsh, Catherine Jimerson, and Josh Armstrong... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

WWII vs. Vietnam

Vietnam was a drastic war between North Vietnam and South Vietnam. Vonnegut sets the stage where this war is useless. He mocks it (page 135) by calling it a great war, but, in reality, it's not.

WWII was a long and dreadful war. Resulting in two atomic bombs exploding in Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Vonnegut, also, sets that this war is useless. WWII was just a war over territory and who has the most power.

All wars are useless. What is the point in fighting over territories or who has the most power? It's not relevant to fight over anything. Yes, leaders have their differences in oppinions, but that doesn't give reason to create a war over it.