Feeling Loneliness

Alone
by Maya Angelou

Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one thing
And I don't believe I'm wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

There are some millionaires
With money they can't use
Their wives run round like banshees
Their children sing the blues
They've got expensive doctors
To cure their hearts of stone.
But nobody
No, nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Now if you listen closely
I'll tell you what I know
Storm clouds are gathering
The wind is gonna blow
The race of man is suffering
And I can hear the moan,
'Cause nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Well, as you all know, NOBODY can survive alone. That's why I picked this poem. It expresses the reality of life and survival.

Again, as you all may realize, I just moved back to New York. Well, this poem made me realize the connection between my mom and I and our struggle in our "new life." It's tough to find an easy way through life, but some may find it. My mom and I are on our way to JUST making it on our own. A couple years with my father was one hell of a life...I could get what ever I wanted and my parents could still pay the bills. Now it's the hardest experience because I have to continue working (eventhough I hate it), and help my mom pay the bills. Right now, I'm helping buy the groceries, and it's hard to keep up with the money. I don't make more than minimum (because I just started) and I'm struggling myself.

This poem made me think of how I'm going to move on and move out and live by myself and support my own. I'd imagine it's pretty hard, especially that I know how it is way before the matter. It's tough growing up and most don't want to (especially me), but the world continues to grow and we just have to grow with it, I guess.